sasquatch

dissapointed.

2012-02-06T21:50:00.001-08:00

im very disappointed in you. but i wish you all the best.

sedih.

2012-02-06T21:09:00.000-08:00

its really sad when youve tried your hardest but you already know nothings gonna work.

kisah yang sedih.

2012-01-24T07:13:00.000-08:00

ini kisah boyfriend yg tak sempat nak hadir girlfriend punye bday party. so he text her.

boyfriend: hey, if you had one wish for your birthday, what would you wish for this very second.
girlfriend: to celebrate it with my loves one.
boyfriend: im a genie and im here to make you happy. im outside of you house. quick, its nearly 12. sorry for being late baby.
girlfriend: omg really?! (hides other boy in closet)

twitter.

2012-01-23T00:51:00.001-08:00

or itll just be my twitter. :)

close.

2012-01-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

blog ini akan ditutup. not sure when, but akan. and not sure if its permanent ke tak. cause there are just too many secrets that are not appreciated.

cursing.

2012-01-20T08:35:00.001-08:00

pantat.
lege sikit.
:)

End.

2011-12-28T23:58:00.000-08:00

ending 2011 early by a couple of days.

To 2011,
youve been a friend, youve been a foe, youve been a sin and pious.
youve been the past, the present and the future.
youve been everything that i hope for, and everything i didnt.
thanks, but i have to leave you.
im going to meet 2012 in a couple of days, and i hope youll wish me luck and pray that she'll be better than you in every way.
but i wont forget you.

love me.

hey you. :)

2011-12-20T16:46:00.000-08:00

dear you.
i wont know when you will be reading this, or if you will ever come across this. but i just hope it will pass through you mind to check it out.
i miss you. the old you. i miss how you would write about me in your blog. making me feel special and all. but now, there are just too few words about me. and ill be lucky if a single word was written. i sometimes make a big deal of something small just so that we can get into a fight, and watch you cry it off in your twitter, just as a sign that i still do exist. cause if i dont, i know nothing will come out of your mouth and mind to say anything about me.
i miss you. the old you. i miss how you would text me or call me even for a few seconds to remind me to go to friday prayer, even though i already know what i should do. but as doing so, helps me know that you still remember me, even for a split second. but now, not a single text was given before 1pm on friday.
i miss you. the old you. i miss how you would force me to wish you goodnight when youre about to sleep. now, you dont even text me saying that youre going to bed, but a more simple text of asking me to wake you up at 530. when i wake up, i just hope ill see a text saying a single word 'nite'. theres no more morning texts now, even though ive set my alarm at 530 just to wake you up. i guess youre too busy with your heavily packed schedule to not having a second to say thank you for trying to wake you up.
all i want to say is that i miss you.
the old you.
this post isnt trying to pick a fight with you, just to remind you on how happy i was back then compared to now. i know youre too busy with your studying, and i just pray that youll be like this once again.
:)

perbezaan.

2011-10-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

kau ade twitter, aku ade blog.
ape bezanye?
twitter kau boleh tulis what's happening at that very moment, blog pulak kau boleh tulis what's happening at that very moment tapi boleh tulis panjang lebar haram.
twitter kau boleh private, kasi orang2 tertentu bace which mostly orang buat kecuali celeb (dan yang bajet celeb). blog pun same, tapi wtf, kisah plak aku sape yang bace.
twitter kau leh contact2 orang, blog tak de la sangat, just kau kene berharap orang comment post kau.
twitter kau boleh tulis semue bende yang kau buat, tanpe disedari ape yg kau tulis tu, orang lain yang tak de twitter pinjam member punye twitter, stalk kau punye twitter, and baru tahu diri kau yg sebenar. blog same je, tapi blog kau boleh tulis panjang lebar detail emo2 letak gambar and berharap orang akan bace post kau tu dan terase dengan ape yang kau tulis.
so nnt dh jumpe, jangan nak deflect2 salahkan aku this and that la, when aku berusaha sedaye upaye and all, cause aku pun dah tahu watak dan perwatakan kau yang sebenar.
:)

meatballs and iceskating. :)

2011-06-16T11:32:00.000-07:00

this post is for a special person.
ive never written a too specific post about her.
a friend of mine once asked me to describe her in only one word.
and i didnt even manage to figure to say it, maybe it was because she was next to me or maybe i wasnt able to find a single word to describe her at that moment.
well, whoevers reading this and stories ive told them would know all the shits ive been through just to get to where i am today.
you know those fairy tales, where a beautiful girl finds a handsome man and falls in love?
even in beauty and the beast, the beast eventually turns into a handsome man.
well my story is this beast falls in love with a girl, but doesnt turn handsome at all.
but the girl was able to see through all of flaws and accepted for who i am.
weve been through a couple of fights now and then, but up till now manage to overcome them.
owh and yes, ive known few guys who like her, handsome ones, well educated, and even more perfect than i am, but somehow shes just too weird to still be holding onto me.
ive must have been doing something right i guess.
okay so the point of this post was just to say how much i love her.
owh, and i recently found a single word that would describe her to me, complete.
:)

He's always there. :)

2011-04-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

okay2, last week gado ngn kawan baik.
tapi dah okay.
nak chill diri sendiri, pegi la mcd, teringin nak makan shake and fries.
pegi2 order, dah bayar duit, die ckp machine dah off.
hmmm, okay la, tukar air sprite.
pastu dah keluar mcd, baru terfikir, if tukar air dari asal from sprite to shake, bukan lagi mahal ke?
SO SEKARANG BAYAR HARGE SHAKE UNTUK SPRITE?!
hmmm, sabar, okay, naik moto, masuk bawah flyover nak uturn, krek krek krek.
moto mati. -.-"
walao!
terpakse tolak around 2-3km, penat dowh!
kalau aku dah penat tolak moto, abih kau tak fikir plak bruno mars tolak tarik piano die tu?
lagi around 400m nak smpi rumah, ade abg nie tanye "asal bang ngn moto"
aku pun jawab "tah la, tibe2 rosak"
then, tibe2 abg tu came up to me and tanye, "nak pegi mane nie?"
aku, "nak balik rumah"
die, "owh dekat tak?"
aku, "ade la masuk2 selekoh ni sikit"
die, "okay la, biar saye tolong tolak sekali"
aku, "owh, tak pe ke bang?"
die, "tak pe"
dah sampai rumah
aku, "terime kasih bang"
die, "tak pe"
aku, "abg nak upah ape2 ke?" WTF?! SOALAN PALING BODOH AKU PENAH TANYE SELAME AKU HIDUP NIE! -.-"
die, "eyh, tak pe"
aku, "terime kasih bang"
die, terus pergi.
awal2 tu mmg marah la, cause had to push dekat 2km, tapi nak dekat habis tu, alhamdulillah, ade insan yang sempat nak tolong.
so, moral die, if kau dalam kesusahan, and dah usaha and all, insyaallah, akan ade sesuatu atau seseorang or something yang akan tolong memudahkan masalah kau itu.
owh, did i mentioned it was 4am in the morning?
walao kao dao!
kul 4, still abg tu hidup, and mampu tolong.
korang bile plak?
owh, ini gambar moto yang terpakse ditolak.

keluarga yang cool, okay?

2011-03-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

okay, bukan nak bangge or anything, tapi mmg aku bersyukur sebab dapat family macam nie yang hebat-hebat belaka. im gonna write my fave quotes or lines from them.

abg farid: "bodo! babi!", "ejat, jom pegi mam. pegi mampos!"

ely: not really a quote, tapi perbuatan die. bile malu die akan senyum, lesung pipit akan muncul, pastu cover malu. and satu lagi, when he talks like a nigger wannabe. -.-"

anep: "mama, mane boxer ejat anep?" "bodo la anep! pakai boxer ejat! (jerit ejat)" "kan abg dah cakap boxer ejat anep."

papa: "ala, kenape 50? kenape tak nak 100, 200?" "ejat, ejat sekarang dah kene beli baju ade gambar kude-kude"

mama: "mama duduk atas pun boleh nmpk tin gule dalam cabinet dapur blakang tin milo" "selamat telur tu lekat, kalau tak dah hilang mane dah!"

:)

"melayu" babi. :)

2011-02-19T02:48:00.000-08:00

ok, secare terus terang, itu bukan aku.
ok, secare terus terang, yang rakam tu bukan aku.
ok, secare terus terang, suare tu bukan aku.

tak yah nak ulas sangat la pasal video nie, jelas sangatkan ape die cakap.
pakai iphone phore 720p kut.

serious aku malu nak mengaku aku melayu kalau melayu zaman-zaman sekarang nie berperangai macam nie.
dah la sekolah lagi.
aku yang baru 20 tahun dan bape2 bulan pun tak tahu hidup dunia sebenar nie macam mane, yang kau baru belas2 dah nak berlagak.

ok, secare terus terang, aku ade la jugak kekurangan dalam mengimejkan diri aku melayu, seperti pakaian, lagu2, dan kesopan santunan tapi tak de la sampai melibatkan orang2 lain.

and aku serious sakit telinge kalau orang cakap keling.
tak tipu, demi Allah aku tak tipu.

aku bukan nak bangge or ape, tapi aku rase aku tak penah panggil orang keling, nak tujukan kepada kawan, jiran, dll yang berbangsa india.

so, bukan aku nak fire orang2, tapi tolonglah berubah.
kite yang duduk senegara yang berbilang kaum, tolonglah hormat.

so, if aku ade buat salah ape2, tegur aku.
insyaallah aku boleh terime dengan hati yang terbuke.
aku pun kalau nampak bende yang aku tak suke or bagi aku salah, aku akan tegur, insyaallah.

:)

macam-macam. :)

2011-02-15T06:09:00.000-08:00

ok.
i just want to post this, just for fun.
ok, hari jumaat tu pegi hantar rusman fly.
ok, secare jujur, dekat 3 hari jiwa nie sesat.
mmg tak tahu nak buat ape.
lepas tu balik rumah.
pastu sambut bday jija.
malam tu berlaku satu kes.
mintak tlg kawan2 yang rapat cam wan and shahir, tapi due2 diam.
so, ambik satu tindakan yang sangat bodoh.
sampai sekarang rase diri sendiri bodoh.
cite kat naqi, dalam hati rasenye die cakap bodo (hahaha?).
pastu nak jugak chat dengan wan and shahir.
dah cite sikit kat wan, die cakap cam bodo.
shahir je tak cite lagi, tapi semalam die call through skype, tapi tak angkat cause tido.
serious aku kene cakap ngn kau shahir.
aku tahu kau tak bace post aku, tapi aku dapat rase yang kau akan tergerak hati tuk chat dengan aku.
itu pun kalau kau still anggap aku sebagai best friend kau la.
cause aku baru prasan, yang kawan2 skg nie mmg tinggalkan kau skg or nanti.
aku percaye kat kau je, aku tahu kau akan jage aku bile aku tue nanti. :D
um, hari nie pegi sunway lagoon.
best.
pastu nak jadi iceskating, tak blh sebab ade hal2 tertentu.
nanti je la pegi iceskating.
okaybye.

:)

khas buat asraf. :)

2011-02-15T06:03:00.000-08:00

ok, seperti mana tajuk di tajukkan, post ini dipost khas buat asraf (usher).
serious terharu bile aku dapat tahu yang kau bace post aku.
walaupun kau tak comment, tapi gaye kau yang asyik tanye bile nak post and post tu pasal sape, aku rase terharu. :D
aku cite sikit pasal die nie.
kenal die kat mrsm lipis.
dialog yang aku akan ingat pasal die besides the usual 'old town white coffee' dialog yang akan dilafazkan olehnye setiap kali kiteorang lalu old town dekat ngn rumah aku is:
usher: "zad, aku nak kau sebagai roommate la"
me: "hmm, tak kisah"
a couple of days later:
usher: "zad, kite roommate dowh!"
me: "serious? -.-" "
usher: "mulut aku masin"
this happened time aku awal2 form 5.

thnks usher.
nanti blanje aku.

:)

help? :)

2011-01-28T18:28:00.000-08:00

aku sekarang tengah mencari member2 die.
bukan stakat untuk tlg aku, tetapi yang lebih penting is tolong die.
aku confess, some of bende2 jahat yang die buat disebabkan aku.
itu aku rase bersalah, and aku rase tanggungjawab aku untuk tolong die sekarang.
yes, ade member die ckp aku yang bersalah, on top of that, ade jugak member2 aku bersalah.
dah la kutuk aku, cakap dah tue baru nak bercinta.
yup, beza umur aku dengan die lebih dari 10 tahun, tapi salah aku kerana aku jatuh cinta?
aku masih ingat lagi, dulu die hari2 asyik call aku, untuk kejutkan aku subuh.
and yes, aku dulu dari tak sembahyang, dah mule sembahyang balik.
cakap la, ala, sebab perempuan nak sembahyan.
ye, memang bende yang initiate aku tuk sembahyang is her, where some of you might not have agree the reason to why i started praying, tapi aku rase better than tak sembahyang kan?
keje aku tak seberapa, tapi alhamdulillah, halal.
dulu aku selalu lepak malam, keluar dengan kawan2 aku, pegi makan, tengok movie.
tapi sekarang dorang cakap aku dah berubah, cause aku jarang lepak dengan dorang.
ye la, setiap kali makan, aku akan fikir, dia dah makan ke?
setiap kali aku nak beli baju or ape2 untuk diri die, aku akan fikir, die tengah buat ape?
so aku akan beli something untuk die, yang memakse aku untuk tidak beli bende yang aku nak.
aku masih tidak bersedia untuk melepaskan die.
walaupun aku tahu yang die tidak cinta aku lagi, aku akan tetap pegang die selagi die berperangai macam nie.
Tuhan, tolong bimbing die balik, dan tolong tabahkan hati aku.
amin.
:)

stars-stars. :)

2011-01-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

okay, aku ada bace blog sarah about milo ape tah, and found out about the zodiac thingy.
patut la kat tumblr ade orang buat y-u-no guy punye lawak pasal bende nie.
but nevermind.

here are the new zodiac signs:
Capricorn January 20- to February 16
Aquarius February 16 to March 11
Pisces March 11 to April 18.
Aries April 18 to May 13
Taurus May 13 to June 21.
Gemini June 21 to July 20
Cancer July 20 to August 10
Leo August 10 to September 16
Virgo September 16 to October 30
Libra October 30 to November 23
Scorpio November 23 to November 29
Ophiuchus November 29 to December 17
Sagittarius December 17 to January 20

supermom?

2011-01-11T16:11:00.000-08:00

semalam:

mom:
me: mama, tolong kejutkan ejat pukul 8. thnks.
mama: ok.

her:
me: nak mintak tolong boleh?
her: ape?
me: tolong kejutkan i pukul 8.
her: ok.
me: thnks.

hari ini:

kring2~~~
papa: ejat dah bangun ke?
me: dah.
papa: ade test ke?
me: tak, ade hal sikit.
papa: okay.

kring2~~~
her: hello, dah bangun?
me: dah.
her: owh, you test esok?
me: haah.
her: goodluck.
me: thnks.

kring2~~~
girl: hello?
me: hello?
girl: mama suruh kejutkan ejat. die tengah busy.
me: owh, okay, terime kasih.

(suare kakak itu sexayyyy okayyyy!)

moral: walaupun mama busy, die masih ade mase untuk tunaikan janjinye terhadap saye. titew windu mama titew..... :'(

:)

0.facebook. :)

2011-01-05T09:22:00.000-08:00

self-reminder: password anda telah ditukar oleh kawan baik anda yang berkulit gelap yang tinggal sangat jauh dan jarang online di mana-mana social network website dan juga messenger.

readers-reminder: skype untuk kawan, blog untuk hati, tumblr untuk jiwa. still ada.
:)

am i awesome or am i awesome?

2011-01-01T12:38:00.000-08:00

okay, bende nie baru direka beberape hari yang lepas.
so, maybe bende nie agak bangang, but hey, it works. :D
aku rase bende nie boleh dipakai oleh jantina mana2, sama ada laki or perempuan.

boy: ala, kau kan ade boyfriend. mintak la die buat/beli/kasi bla bla bla.
girl: aku ade boyfriend? haha, ill always be forever alone.
boy: hmm, tak pe. by next year, youll find mrright. he'll love you and youll marry him some day cause youll always be happy with him.
girl: haha. kau igt kau ape? tarot card reader? palm reader? fortune teller?
boy: no. ill be mrright.
girl: *diam. rase terharu and thinks he is the one*
boy: haha. pergh, awesome gile line aku. nak test kat perempuan lain la.
girl: *f. forever alone*

haha, ok, yang part the girl terharu tu tak de, itu cume ditambahkan sahaje.

tapi korang kene admit bende nie cool kan?
hahaha.

so, for those yang mencari cinta, good luck, and hold on tight.
and for those yang have started their year badly, dont worry, therell be smooth roads up ahead.

hny people.
*bukan ade orang bace pun* -.-"
:)

muslim sangat ke?

2010-12-24T10:14:00.000-08:00

okay, biar aku cakap terus terang, aku nie seorang yang tidak kuat sangat agama.
tapi aku berusaha.
so, korang nak kutuk pun cam tak de point sebab aku dah cakap awal2.

ok, yang first skali aku nak cakap or bincang about is ape yang aku jumpe kat tumblr.
this is the post.
A non-Muslim guy: why do your girls cover up their hair & body?
Muslim guy smiled and got two candies, one covered and the other not and threw them into the dusty floor.
Muslim guy: If you were to choose one of them, which one would you choose?
A non-Muslim guy replied: The covered one.
Muslim guy: And that's how we treat & see our women.
okay.
very cute.
do you get the picture?
from my pov, sesiape yang tidak menurut perintah agame dipandang hina.
well, itu betul.
tapi tapi, in this context is its about aurat.
kalau kau tak tutup aurat, kau dipandang hina.
okay okay, tapi, kalau kau prasan, yang orang muslim tu yang campak gula-gula tu kat lantai.
so skg kau bagi tahu aku, siape yang salah, orang muslim tu ke orang bukan muslim tu?
tak silap aku, dalam PAI, form 1 ke form 2, aku tak igt, Islam ade cakap to treat other human beings equally.
yang kau pegi campak gula2 tu kat lantai buat ape?
aku rase if gula2 yang dibalut tu kau letak lantai, and gula2 yang tak kene balut kau letak atas tangan kau, aku akan ambik atas tangan kau punye.
and and, jangan ingat orang pakai tudung nie baik2.
ade je 3gp dorang dalam kete, kat sekolah, kat kelape sawit. (ooooopss, pelisip)
ade je orang tak pakai tudung baik.

kes kedue is pasal tutup aurat dekat masjid or surau.

kalau korang perasan, hampir setiap masjid dan surau ade bende2 nie.
memang betul.
aku bukan nak salahkah, memang tempat2 mcm nie kite kene jage.
tapi, kalau orang tu nak membuat kewajipan (bende ape lagi kalau nak buat bende wajib kat masjid ngn surau?) and die tak tutup aurat macam mane?
sebab aku pernah terbace orang duk kutuk dalam surat khabar, about orang malaysia tak tutup aurat masuk masjid boleh, tapi pelancong tak tutup aurat tak leh masuk.
so, cadangan aku la, pihak masjid tlg sediakan kain pelekat or anything sebelum kawasan masjid tersebut.
selain itu, pengguna itu la yang kene bawak sendiri, ataupun mmg pakai bende2 yang elok dan bersesuaian.
and untuk pengetahuan semue, orang yang tutup aurat nie tak semestinye dorang sembahyang.

okay, yang nie aku agak bengang.

ade satu page kat facebook, name orang die kritian agama setan.
mane kau blaja?
hahaha.
sedih gile.
korang fikir la sendiri.

and aku nak quote something dari blog member aku dengan ape yang die post.

"dorang bukan tau agame islam macam mane, kutuk2 je."
"dah dorang tak tau, kau ajar la dorang."
something like that, aku pun dah lupe.

:)

What makes me awesome?

2010-12-21T11:35:00.000-08:00

you really wanna know?
fine, ill tell you.
here are some fun facts you might not know about me.
if they arent here, then you gotta ask me.

Fun facts:
1.i cant open my eyes wide when the sun is shining outside.
2.my eyes hurts if there is too much light.
3.my eyes hurts when the room is dark, but theres a little light (such as light from fon charger, or lappy, or those tv standby modes)
4.when im taking the shower, its 7 minutes looking at the mirror, 3 minutes of shower, and other minutes in doing other stuff.
5.i listen to songs when i take my shower, or other stuff.
6.i dont like sleeping on a bed unless their are soft enough, i prefer sleeping on a mattress on the floor.
7.if i sleep alone, i like to have my back facing the wall.
8.most of the time, ill order sirap ais.
9.i can only raise my left eyebrow and not my right.
10.my forehead is like luas gile, boleh main golf. and due to this forehead, i look like ian somerhalder.

ill update more about myself.
its these little things that makes a huge difference.
:)

theory bawang. :)

2010-12-19T12:12:00.000-08:00

ok.
ini theory bawang.
and sudah diapprove oleh beberape pihak bahawa theory ini boleh dipakai.

seorang perempuan akan tertarik dan berkata2 seperti berikut "untungnye perempuan yang dapat mamat nie sebagai bf die" setelah mendengar luahan perasaan seorang lelaki yang menangis mengatakan betapa sayangnye die terhadap gf die.

seorang perempuan akan tertarik dan berkata2 seperti berikut "untungnye aku kalau mamat nie jadi suami aku" setelah mendengar luahan perasaan seseorang lelaki yang menangis mengatakan betapa sayangnye die terhadap kedueibu bapanye.

ape kaintannye dengan bawang?
itu korang fikir sendiri la.
kalau nak tahu sila tanye.
:)

baik?

2010-12-13T00:16:00.000-08:00

okay2.
okay.
okeng.

aku nak cite sikit la ngn sape yang membace.
aku dulu tak ramai kawan sebab berpindah2 and everything.
seriously aku boleh kire bape orang kawan2 aku time aku form 3 and below.
kurang dari jari yang ade pada tangan korang, aku, dan orang2 lain.
that few.
lepas tu masuk form 4.
lepas tu kene kutuk, ade cakap aku sombong.
ape yg aku suke about this guy is die memang kutuk depan2, tak de nak ngumpat blakang.
so, dari ape yang die cakap, aku cube la ubah diri jadi more open up.
and bagus la, aku tend to get more friends throughout the high school.
then masuk la mcb.
dah la aku sorang je dari highschool aku, selamat ade member sekolah menengah time form 3 dulu.
tapi bagus ah, aku senang buat kawan and everything.
and kat sini la aku kenal bestfriendbestfriendbetul2aku.
okay, and stakat mane yang aku igt, aku ade tolong certain2 orang stakat mane yang aku mampu.
okay, dah keluar mcb, habis la cite tu.
lepas tu blaku la satu bende yang aku tak terkejut, tapi cam sakit hati.
kalau boleh, aku nak patah balik same, and tak tolong engkau, or tolong kau tapi secare tak ikhlas.
bile aku buat kerje tak ikhlas nie, ape2 balasan aku dapat dari kau aku cam tak kisah.
cube korang fikir sendiri la.
kau tolong seseorang nie, memang ikhlas gile ah, and kau tahu bende yang kau tolong die tu sangat bermakne bagi die.
tapi bile die balas dengan bende2 yang agak bangang, ape perasaan korang?
kau rase kau dihargai tak?
ke rase cam taik?
okay, back kepade cite tadi.
orang tu cam boleh kate buat something yang bukan directly pada aku la, tapi aku cam terase jugak.
and aku nak ambik kate2 dari kawan aku. "jat, kau disenangi ramai"
satu lagi, "mcm mane nak jadi peramah cam you?"
aku tak tahu la same ade aku nie baik gile, or just baik biase, only to some, or sebab mmg aku dididik macam tu or sebab aku dibesarkan dalam environment macam nie.
tapi bile korang reflect balikkan, whats the point in being good to all all of the time, tetapi what you get back is just plain crap?
cam tak de gune kan?

aku rase nak berubah.
nak ikut kepale aku.
lantak korang la suke or tak suke.

herere some pics.

yes, i wanna do stupid stuff(s) with you.
:)

tension. :)

2010-12-04T13:29:00.000-08:00

things are a bit hectic now.
since last week actually.
thermo course work and two lab reports perlu dihantar pada hari yang sama.
teffak?
yes, teffak.
hopefully this tuesday all will be done.
my eyebags are getting darker and bigger.
i think this is like the first post since my last post(s) yang tidak emo.
so, im gonna like tell you guys my plans for this week, month, and so on.
this week, pegi jumpe soya, ambik die, and bla bla bla.
this month, hols starts on the 19th.
next year, exams.
next year, indonesia. (hopefully)
mission terdekat: kumpul duit, beli torch, pegi uk.
and i need new friends.
so sesiape yang tengah bace nie, and terfikir "macam best je budak nie, and so awesome, and yada yada." walaupun tah penah tegur or keluar bersama, feel free to ask me out.
jangan awkward sangat, nanti jadi cam michael cera.
if youre reading this, drop a comment or so.
cebab titew windu kamuww semueww.
titew nak pewluk kamuww tetat tetat.
aku bagi die pilihan dowh.

owh, yeah.
this is my current playlist:
yuna - deeper conversation
go radio - forever my father
amber pacific - gone so young, here we stand
mayday parade - miserable at best
boys ii men - one sweet day, end of the road
...all time low - remembering sunday, therapy
midnight hour - running away
boyce avenue - shadow of the day, teenage dream
the parachute - she is love
boys like girls - thunder, holiday, go
tokyo rose - i love you
muse - unintended
the calling - wherever you will go
bayside - winter
the red-jumpsuit appratus - your guardian angel
paramore - the only exception, never let this go, let it rain, misguided ghost
secondhand serenade - your call, its not over, something more
enrique iglesias - hero
evanescence - my immortal
fall out boy - me and you, donnie what a catch
saosin - fireflies, youre not alone (acoustic/piano)
aizat - i go
relient
k - who i am hates who ive been (acoustic), give until
theres nothing left (acoustic), i so hate consequences (acoustic)

so, sesiape yang tahu any other slow, mellow, sad, koyak songs, please do tell.
if possible, acoustic or piano only.

and last but no least, stay calm.

:)

my turn. :)

2010-11-18T09:25:00.000-08:00

lol, i do. and sometimes i forget to reply my texts fyi. and its a habit of mine to reply text late unless its an emergency(i dont text, i call). and fyi, everones important to me. and fyi, i text asking how people are when im thinking of them, in other words, caring about them. and fyi, if you dont reply, i always think that youve better and important things to do.

and fyi, i dont like to bother people, knowing that they are doing something important. and just wondering, how did you study before we even knew each other? (dont take it the wrong way, its just a question and not something that i wanna point out). and yes, sometimes i do need my own personal time, not only to lepak with friends, but my assignments, course work, and other things. and fyi, i have eight things (assignments, lab report, course work, tests) i have to settle by these two weeks. lets just wait and see what will happen in the future (or do you want it to happen now?). and from your last statement, it already shows whats to come and your personality.

and fyi, we all have flaws.
:)

ps: good luck for you examinations, even though im nothing to you.

tumblr?

2010-11-04T07:40:00.000-07:00

sudah lama saye tidak mengepos pos yang baru dalam blog ini.
bukan tidak mahu, tetapi rase malas and tak de bende penting pun.
and saye tidak tulis masalah saye di blog untuk orang lain membaca dan mengetahui.
saya ada account tumblr, dan saye juga tidak mengepos ape2 pos dekat tumblr itu, hanya sekadar ingin membace bende2 yang bodo di sane.
skg saye tengah bosan.
sacare jujur2nye, saye rindu kawan2 saya yang berada di luar negara.
ye, awak tahu awak sape.
saye tak pernah lupekan awak, hari2 name awak akan kedengaran dalam kepale saye.
ade banyak cerite saya nak bagi tahu awak, tapi saya tahu awak busy.
and jujur2nye, saye pun busy, tipu la kalau saye cakap saye tak busy.
bawahnie ade gambar untuk awak, saye tahu awak suke catoon2 bangang macam nie.

bangang dowh kau.
:)

love and friendship. :)

2010-09-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

this is a conversation between love and friendship. :(
love: hey, can i ask you a question?
friendship: hey. yeah sure. whassup?
love: so yeah, i was wondering why do you exist if i already exist?
friendship: from what i was told, im here to put smiles to those you left with tears.
love: if thats what you do, then how come there are still people crying?
friendship: owh, thats my fault. because sometimes, instead of doing my job, i end up doing yours.
:(

i miss you. :)

2010-08-31T14:02:00.000-07:00

do you want to know how much i miss you?
when it rains, go outside, and try catching as many raindrops as possible.
the ones that you manage to catch, is how much you miss me.
the ones that you didnt, well, thats how much i miss you.
muah muah.
:)

u and i?

2010-08-24T00:29:00.000-07:00

look at your keyboard closely.

ok, now look closer on the alphabets.

now, focus on the first row of the alphabets, starting from Q

wow, what do we have here? the letter U and I are next to each other! how romantic. :)

but wait, whats that letter next to U. omg! its the letter Y!

hmmm.
get the picture?
youll start questioning why are you stuck with him/her/shemale/hefemale?
some of the answers might be good ones, or maybe some are just bad.
for me, ive got 21 days to suffer, but its not going to start immediately, maybe next month probably.
wish me luck. :D
:)

happy birthday. :)

2010-08-22T08:26:00.000-07:00

as some of you are aware of, today is my birthday.
so better view my profile on fb and wish me.
today has been one of the best and worst birthday ever.

kenapa best?
reason 1: i got nothing from my parents.
reason 2: i got money from my third brother.
reason 3: i got a birthday cake (?) with no candles and frosting and all from my second brother.
reason 4: probably gonna get some money by my uncle and aunt.
reason 5: i saw my third brother's gf, and die lawa. :D

kenapa worst?
reason 1: dont have the chance to celebrate with my friend who has the same birth date.
reason 2: my eldest brother didnt give me anything.
reason 3: dia.

my friend with the same date pun cakap this was his worst birthday ever.
maybe this year je kut, hopefully next year will be the the best. :D
:)

damn it. :)

2010-08-03T14:55:00.000-07:00

disappointed gile dragon balls tak de. :(
:)

triplets. :)

2010-07-22T09:45:00.000-07:00

vampire. :)

2010-07-21T12:07:00.000-07:00

speechless.
:)

kebodohan. :)

2010-07-13T12:45:00.000-07:00

have a very happy wednesday.
:)

unintentional?

2010-06-30T10:59:00.000-07:00

have you guys like ever work so hard, and the outcomes are just so, how can i put this in one simple word, gay?
i guess thats how life works somehow, you give it all, and all you get back are shitty outcomes.
and when i say shitty, i really mean shitty.
with a big S and Y.
heres some of my favorites.
ELMO!

i know there was something fishy with ELMO and his sesame street's friends, especially cookie monster. theres something in those cookies arent they?
pole dancing?

hmmm, ok guys, i know what youre thinking. poor kid. and no, its not pole dancing. from a reliable source, the kid want to work as a promoter for the new snow shovel at Home Depot like her mom. yeah, snow shovel.

and last but no least (for now), video games.
owh, one of the best creation there is in this world. but can they also be, unintentional? or gay?
well, dragon ball can.

hmmm.
what about this game? i cant remember the name of it. whoever does, please do tell.

EPIC FAIL!
:)

gay? think again. :)

2010-06-26T02:10:00.000-07:00

im not gay.
end of story.

this should be how they should promote it from the beginning.

and this is just wrong.
:)

the biggest mistake she ever loved

2010-06-20T13:30:00.000-07:00

i was hated by my mom.
im serious. :)
i think it was since the first day i was born, and not really sure when she stopped hating me.
i really can say i was innocent back then, not knowing anything.
luckily there was dad. :)
was i the mistake, or was she?
from this day on, i always avoid of remembering the stories i overheard.
i do believe that syurga berada di bawah kaki ibu.
but now, i also believe that she loves me.
cause im the biggest mistake she ever made, having, and loved.
thnks mom.

:)

north. :)

2010-06-20T13:20:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since my last post.
so, i just came back from kampung, and found some new things.
theres a couple of things where you can only get up the north, and not anywhere else:
1)bowling for only rm1 a game. wtf?!
2)ba (theres always that one owner of a kedai runcit who you will always remember, and whats amazing is, he also remembers you when you were like, i dont know, five years old?)
3)hungry water? yes, hungry water, or better known as lapaq aiyaq. -.-"

:)

pon and zi. :

2010-05-29T13:30:00.000-07:00

ok, things are getting a bit hectic this week.
everyday, ade je masalah baru timbul, but i dont mind. :) i see it as a cabaran for me.
have you ever felt that you were born in this world to please others, and make your own self suffer?
i do. kudos to me. :)
having to please others is one of the problems i have to face everyday.
penah dgr ayat nie tak: "kau dah berubah" or "kau dau lupe member" or even "dont need to be friends anymore" ?
if you have, then good. if you havent, then good also.
it just hurts me deep inside on how people keep on repeating the same thing over and over again.
its just hard to please everyone at the same time, and it hurts me knowing that i have to sacrifice my time with others to make others happy.
i like having friends around me, it makes me feel happy and safe.
a place to tell all your problems (but i dont usually share to all, only certain that i know i can really rely on), and a place to keep you happy and safe all the time.
friends are not measured on how long you have known them, but on how rapat you are with them.
and i mengaku that those friends i can really rely on are people who ive just met less than two years.
loosing friend(s) is my weakness. ill feel very weak for a long time, trying to remember all the hope and joy and problems we had face together.
i even cried listening to a song (bayside - winter) cause ill have these visions that each and everyone of my friends will die in a car accident, and im not trying to scare you guys off.
i spend money and time just to keep you all happy, while i suffer. i just cant say no when people ask for help, also another weakness.
but i do believe in karma, what goes around comes around, what you give youll get back, tangan yang memberi lebih baik dari tangan yang menerime. it doesnt necessarily means that if i give you money, ill get the money back. all i want is that our friendship will last till we die, and sambung balik when were in heaven. :)

to her:
if youre reading this, i dont know what i did wrong, and i think ive done nothing wrong. but if i did, im really sorry. i dont want it to end it this. and if you really meant what you said, i guess i just have to face it.

might not seem much that i can give you, but i tried.

this is how much i try to please you.

this is how much i care about you.

:)

Forever My Father :)

2010-05-26T18:46:00.000-07:00

You don't have to be so scared
You don't have to leave tonight
I just need to hold on tight
One hell of a ride

And we lost it all just now
To the nights that left you out
So we'll let this go somehow
But you're gonna be proud, so proud

And I just needed you to pick me up
Like you did when we were younger
When the lightning and the thunder
Had me clinging to your heart
For someone to lift me up
When I'm down and I'm forgotten
You'll forever be my father
And I'll be saving tears in jars for this one

How can I fit all these words
Into such a simple verse
It's the last time that we'll speak
So listen to me, please

And I just needed you to pick me up
Like you did when we were younger
When the lightning and the thunder
Had me clinging to your heart
For someone, to lift me up
When I'm down and I'm forgotten
You'll forever be my father
I'll be saving tears in jars for this one

And I just needed you to lift me up Whoa oh oh oh oh oh (2x)

And I just needed you to lift me up
Like you did when we were younger
When the lightning and the thunder
Had me clinging to your heart
For someone, to lift me up
When I'm down and I'm forgotten
You'll forever be my father
I'll be saving tears in jars for this one

Did you know that you're my heart
And it hurts to be apart
And this cut it hurts so deep
So sing me to sleep

<3 you.

p.s: cherish every moment with him, every single second of it. :)

Teknik-Teknik Untuk Memikat!

2010-05-24T23:28:00.000-07:00

TEKNIK MEMIKAT LELAKI
Location:Taman Dagang
Time:Midnight
Involved:MR.E, MR.T, MR.R, GD1, GD2.

GD1: tumpang tanya boleh?
MR.E memandang ke tepi dan melihat GD1, kemudian memandang tempat lain.
GD1: tumpang tanya boleh?
MR.E dan MR.T memandang dan melihat GD1.
GD1: Belajar dekat mane?
MR.T: Ape?
GD1: Belajar dekat mane?
MR.T: Kolej Mara Banting.
MR.E: Kolej Mara Banting.
GD1: Owh, ok. sorry kacau.
MR.T: Asal? (ade kisah mengenai penggunaan asal)
MR.E dan MR.R: hahahaha.
GD2 dan GD2: (yes, plan kite menjadi)
GD1: Owh, tak, kawan saya cakap muka awak same macam orang dekat kolej die.
MR.T: Owh, belajar mane?
GD1: Dia SEGI College. Dia cakap muke same.
MR.T: Owh Kembar kut.
Sebelum MR.T, MR.E, MR.R pulang, MR.T berkata kepada GD1 dan GD2.
MR.T: Nanti search dekat facebook. :)

TEKNIK MEMIKAT PEREMPUAN
Lelaki: awak ade pen tak?
Perempuan: ade.
Lelaki: kasi pinjam sekejap.
Perempuan: nah.
Lelaki: owh, ade pen(g), ini dah kasi pen(g) nie kene kasi nombor fon.
Perempuan: ye ke?
Lelaki: iye.
Perempuan: 012-XXXXXXX. Malam nie call tau.
-.-"

tak dapat la jep.
bodoh.
:)

There goes my hero. :)

2010-03-29T08:20:00.000-07:00

Dear dad,
thnk you. for everything. for accepting me since i was young, when everyone fails to.
i couldnt ask God for a better father than you, and yes, i do compare you with others, but no other dad can challenge you.
is it nature for a boy to not be too close with his dad? or is it just me, just finding a way to not be close to you?
i always tell stories about you to all my friends. and to my surprise, for them who has already met you, says that youre so cool.
every second ticks, and the time i have left with you go to waste.
if only you could see the feelings on how greatfull i am to have you.
having sons who make mistakes and problems were never you and mamas fault.
never blame yourself for things that you are not responsible for.
they say that sons and daughters are the one who portrays their parents, but i disagree with this, since we are two different people with two different personalities, except for the humor parts. i guess im just better making jokes than you do. haha. :)
thnks for being my dad. my friend.
"There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He’s ordinary"

:)

50cent?

2010-03-27T11:29:00.001-07:00

ok.
this story was told by a friend of mine.
totally unexpected since i see him as someone who is too good.
dont blame me for how sick the story goes, blame him.
heres a clue: he's my classmate. :)

di rumah:
"bang, tak puas la bang. abg punye kecik."
"abg dah usaha dah nie"
"ape kate abg pergi jumpe doktor."

di hospital:
"saya minta maaf encik, tp ini pembedahan yang bahaya. lagipun saya takut nanti encik punya kemaluan itu tidak akan berfungsi lagi.
"tak pe la doktor. terima kasih banyak2."
"bang, mcm mane nie?"
"sabar la yang. kita carik alternatif yang lain"
"ape kate abg pergi jumpe bomoh"
"hmm. elok jugak idea awak tu."

bomoh 1:
"minta maaf encik. saya dah fobia dah buat kerje besar-membesar nie. kes terakhir saya buat bende nie jadi bende lain pulak. encik tgk la dekat link nie http://shesasasquatch.blogspot.com/2010/02/rumah-panjang.html.
"owh. hmmm. kalau mcm tu tk pe la"
"bang, mcm mane nie?"
"sabar la yang. kita carik bomoh lain."

bomoh 2:
"minta maaf encik. saya dah fobia dah buat kerje besar-membesar nie. kes terakhir saya buat bende nie jadi bende lain pulak. encik tgk la dekat link nie http://afifsani.blogspot.com/2010/02/river-pirates.html.
"owh. hmmm. kalau mcm tu tk pe la"
"bang, mcm mane nie?"
"sabar la yang. kita carik bomoh lain."

bomoh 3:
"haaaa. mai sini. aku nk habaq skit. bende nie sebenarnye senang ja. bila hang tgh buat tu, hang bayang sesuatu yang kire ok pada saiznya. hang fokus betui2, contohnya 50sen."
"mcm tu je?"
"mcm tu je. tp hang kene focus betui2. kalau tk, tk berhasil la"
"terima kasih tuan bomoh"
"sama-sama"

di rumah:
"ok, 50 sen 50 sen 50 sen.
beberape minit kemudian,
"bang, sedapnya bang"
"ye ke?"
"iye bang, tak rugi pergi jumpe bomoh hari tu"

di waktu raya:
suasana menjadi ceria. kedengarang bunyi mercun, bau rendang ketupat dan sebagainya.
kedengaran perut sisuami berbunyi. die pun sangat lapar.
ketika si suami dan si isteri tgh melakukan perhubungan seks tersebut, si suami pun berkate:
"ini dapat makan lemang sedap nie"
shreeeeeeeet.
"ARGH!"
:)

go on granny!

from the size of 50 sen to the size of a buluh. -.-"
thats gotta hurt.
:)

2010-03-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

tagged. :)

Rules: Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer.

1. i am

im half jawa half kedahnese indian (i think). the pic its jawa from ireland. -.-"

2. i really wanna go to :

its zagreb people. one of the best gothic city in the world. :)
and maybe this place

saba' restaurant at setiawangse. nas, saba' jom. weeeeeeeeee.

3. my favorite place:

basically anyplace that has a futsal court. :)

4.my favorite thing?

bed. acoustic guitar. what could be better? :)

5.my favorite drink :

mamak style lg sedap. :)

6.my favorite food:

nasi aye. singapore hilam melawati, food court setiawangse, nz wangse maju. :)

7.favorite colour:

not really sure.
used to be green.
sorry for the gay rainbow ppl.
weeeeeee.

8.i was born in :

hmmm.

8.i live in :

rumah panjang.

9.my school or college:

best gile kmb.

10.my favorite story:

best woooo. like ur mom. :)

11. my favorite hobby:

laying in bed and strumming.
and....

CONCERTS!

12.i want to be :

i wanna be, the very best, like no one ever was...bla bla bla. let time take u where ure heading to.

Some of the info are somewhat related to me; somehow. weeeeeee.
:)

Baju Free?

2010-03-19T02:52:00.000-07:00

Ok, nothing much to say here.
hahaha.

kasyur's shirt. the beatles.

soya's.

naqi's
and i saved the best for last.
teehee.

mine.
lol.
ok guys/gals/heteros/homos/peoples.
one shirt cost rm50.
you can choose any designs/patterns or anything you want.
does not necessarily have to be a band.
can be a pic of urself or raywilliamjohnson or anyone/anywho/anywhat you want.
theres black and white shirt only.
:)

Dunia tanpa Yahudi.

2010-03-13T07:11:00.001-08:00

yahudi this yahudi that.
its everywhere you go, and everything that you see. (mostly in mcb)
but i dont mind.
what i mind is that you keep complaining on the jews, but still use jews shits.

heres five great things you will miss out on if there were no jews:
1.Myspace, Facebook and i guess other social network websites.
2.Musics; maybe.
3.Jewish people: Albert Einstine who came out with the e=mc^2,Steven Spielberg the director of Saving Private Ryan and other cool shit movies,KISS the sensational jewish singers wearing clown outfits and Ray William Johnson; whoever he is.
4.Humus; not sure if it was the creation of the jews, but one thing for sure, the jews love em.

5.And last but not least, Afif Sani, a friend of mine.

:)

Rumah Panjang?

2010-02-27T08:58:00.000-08:00

i was inspired with my friends blog. fucking creative la this dude. maybe its because hes a jew.
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thnking about him, let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time there lived two tribe in a village, in negeri sembilan, opposite to one another. Disputes always break out between those two villages and often ends violently.

One day the head of one of the tribe accused the other of trespassing into his land. The accused said that it was his land!

"macam manak kitak nak selesaikan masalah inik?"

"kamik tidak mahuk berperang macam dahuluk lagik" said the other minangkabau.

suddenly, both of them spotted a young man walking pass them. They thought maybe he could help them.

"kitak tolong kamik, kamik bagi ganjaran kepada kitak"

"Pa kata hampa dua panggil satu kampung, pi lawan tarik tali. Sapa menang, tu tanah dia. toksah la dok putuih2 kepala orang" said the young man. he didn't really say like the northerns, since he was from the western part of malaysia. so, it really went like this.
"ape kate korg berdue panggil satu kampung kau tu, and have a tug-of-war. saper menang, tanah dia. tak yah la nak ganggu ketenteraman org lain.

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Finally the dispute was over and everyone was satisfied, even the losing village. The winning village held a feast to celebrate their victory and to thank the young man.

"apa nama kitak ya?"

"nama saya Ezzad Azman" the young man replied promptly

"beginilah tuan Ezzad, sebagai penghargaan kepada tuan, kamik akan namakan kawasan kami sempena nama tuan"

"eh takpalah, saya hanya membantu"

"kalau tuan malu, tidak mengapak. Kamik namakan kawasan kami sempena sifat tuan"
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and thats why the minangkabaus called their village

BATANG BENAR

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i know after this you hobos will do other shit like batang berjuntai, batang kali, janda baik and all. sorry dude. tak ori. :)

:)

jambu.

2010-02-19T09:11:00.000-08:00

ok.
today semue orang nak jadi jambu?
kenapa?
who knows.

hang semua duk rebut pn aida.
but for me...

koodos for me.
its pn roslindawati people.
haha.

heres a pic for you guys.

hampa tak jeles ka aku mengimamkan sejadah?
:)

junk. :)

2010-02-13T11:00:00.000-08:00

not sure of what to write this time.
so, ill just write things that pops up.
1.settle
ok, last week was a havoc. ive manage to finish three major shit in IB. first was my itgs ia. not that hard, but complicated. the arrangement especially. next would be my extended essay on itgs: "TO WHAT EXTENT DOES THE USE OF FACEBOOK BY STUDENTS IN MARA COLLEGE BANTING DECREASE THEIR PERFORMANCE IN PERFORMING TASK". and the conclusion was, more towards the negative side. ive change my research questions about 5 times, but somehow ended up with the first one. and all this research was done about 5 days max. i must say that it wasnt hard, just trying to find the right words. (so that itll reach up to a max of 4000 words). and lastly, the fucking beast among them all, the TOK essay. lasted about a week or so. seriously sakit hati. i guess thats all from college.
2.stealth mode on.
ok. yahoo messenger detector. write yahoo id. bla bla bla is online/offline/invisible. if it says that the person is invisible, its obviously becuase he or she is. if it says that he or she is offline, then he or she is. but when it says that theyre online, but when you check back on your yahoo messenger and theres no trace of them being online, it means uve just been stealth by him or her.

appears ppl.
so, why does this issue happens in the society? discuss this in at least two ways of knowing. through emotion, why did i do wrong? was i causing chaos or anything? am i not that good for him or her? Blaise Pascal: the heart has its own reasons, whereof reason knows nothing. i used it in my TOK essay. the phrase says that there is always reasons to why we are emotional towards something, but reasons does not know anything. but through language, it just will simply say, fuck you.
3.being human.
-one of the thing that i realized is that we, especially malays, has a way with words, especially in avoiding. one of them is "wei, sorry dowh, aku ade hal lah." usually used for people who wants to go out with their girlfriends and boyfriends. the other one would be "aku tertido dowh." in other words, i just want to spend time on my own, relax a little bit. and the last one would be "insyaallah, aku cube." in other words, i'm positive 99% that i wont/cant make/go/do it. sadly to say, i also use them.
4.heres something.

afif: hang tanggalkan seluaq hang.
kasyur: hang biaq betui?
afif: sekarang sekarang sekarang!

haha.
:)

funny shits. like your mom.

2010-02-02T18:26:00.001-08:00

ok.
ive found some cool and funny pics.
heres one.

heres another.
if you dont laugh at this, then ur gay.

ill search for more funny pics and post them.
:)

BLG.

2010-02-02T18:15:00.000-08:00

ok.
i know its old.
but i just want to share it with you guys.
i manage to go to blg concert at mont kiara with a couple of friends.
they played more than 10 songs.
martin's bottle hit me on my tummy. -.-"
and ive got a guitar pick.
yeah~
its ventureguitar, a label under blg's bassists, bryan.

hayat, if u'r reading this, sorry dude. whos the bassist now. haha. ambik la martin kau tu.
:)

hope you get bored in reading this. :)

2010-01-15T03:57:00.000-08:00

its been a fucked up week last week.
i feel guilty as hell.
ok, lately, i got some news that my friend hilang laptop.
poor thing.
so, i was like "sedih gle. lagi2 time critical tuk hantar assignment."
so, this incident happened last week, saturday to sunday to be exact.
i somehow got manipulated and gave my motorbike, rm320, and my p1i sonye fon.
somewhat like a total of rm7000-rm8000.
in a night!
wtf?!
luckily my friends cam was at the right place and the right time.
they tried to comfort me and all.
and also my parents.
they said, "selamat org tu ambik barang2 je, kalau bunuh ezzad cam mane?"
i just feel so guilty in losing those things.
and pasal fon tu, tak kisah la cause it was my money, but yang lain tu, parents nye duit!
i was like, "ape yg aku dah buat? aku baik je ngn semue org. aku rase tk pnh aku nyusahkan org. aku nyusahkan org tuk senangkan dorang ade la. asal eyh Tuhan nk buat aku mcm nie? serious aku tk paham."
and then i terfikir, there must be a reason to why God did this. takkan Dia saje je nk tgk aku mcm nie. and i remembered something that my friend use to say. "Tuhan takkan bagi sesuatu ujian itu melebihi kemampuan mereka."
now, my parents nak kasi duit soh bli hanfon baru.
-.-"
rase bersalah lagi.
some of my friends said that i kene pukau.
dont know la betul ke tak.
seriously im fucking tired of people asking me to repeat the story again and again.
its not that i dont want to, but everytime i tell them, the guilt just keep coming back.
-.-"
hope you get bored when reading this.
:)

google?

2010-01-07T04:23:00.000-08:00

do you guys remember about the lady who won the one million dollars on who wants to be a millionaire?
well, i google it, and heres the outcome of it.
ever since then, the guy who was the answer to the million dollar question became a hit.
more than 100 million views.
wtf?
(click on the image to see a larger image)

:)

the question of the day. :)

2010-01-04T10:34:00.000-08:00

i fucking couldnt believe that this was the 1 million dollar question.
-.-"

anyways, back to school people.
remember, whats good for the babies, is good for the eyes.
:)

im doing your mom. :)

2010-01-03T00:02:00.000-08:00

ok. ive havent update my blog recently, and dah beberape org suh i update. i still find my blog to be somewhat shitty and boring to be read. ill just update you guys with whats been happening.

jan0110.
tgk bunge api di taman maluri. then pegi putrajaya and makan ayam yg dibungkus dari nz. then balik.

jan0210.
mlm pegi main futsal. balik pukul 4pagi. pagi around 10 pegi mamak makan, and ade satu mamak nk blanje. mlm buat stats.

ok, ive got nothing major to say. just that college will be opening in 2 days, ib test will be in 5 months. i also would like to encourage you people to go and watch raywilliamjohnson on youtube, and watch vampire diaries. cause i know you girls (and gay guys) are bragging about twilight and all. and to tell you the truth, twilight sucks. sorry guys, thats the reality. i can prove it by just by giving you a sample pic of the cast of the vampire diaries vs. twilight. ill try to find all the best pic, so you cant say that im being bias.

heres you lovely edward cullen, that all the guys masturbated to.

and heres the main character of the vampire diaries. sorry. i cant find him wearing a suit, with a fricking tie.

see the difference? paul wesley hit robert big time.

and if thats not good enough, heres a pic of ian somerhalder.

ur asking who the fuck is he? well, hes obviously the coolest fucking hot vampire alive. hes the brother to paul wesley in the series.

see what i mean?

thats just raywilliamjohnson. haha, better check on your mom. cause maybe hes doing her right now.

ps:
-puas hati aku dah update elena? haha.
-and to ayam, bile kau nk update blog. aku nk kutuk lagi.
-and to separa cawangan utara, sorry tk hantar msg pape.

:)

whats good for the babies, is good for the eyes.

2009-12-25T12:30:00.000-08:00

A simple conversation on yahoo messenger with a friend of mine:

fuad jamaludin: ejat
ezzad: yes>
ezzad: ?*
fuad jamaludin: aku br taw dow
fuad jamaludin: yg
fuad jamaludin: susu tetek
fuad jamaludin: bgs utk
fuad jamaludin: saket mata
fuad jamaludin: :D
ezzad: tuk menyakitkan ke tuk betulkan
fuad jamaludin: tuk betulkn
fuad jamaludin: tgk.ko pon xtaw kan
fuad jamaludin: haha
ezzad: haha
ezzad: bodo
fuad jamaludin: ler betul bodo
fuad jamaludin: sumpah x tipu
fuad jamaludin: haha
ezzad: aku nk post kat blog aku.
ezzad: :D

ps: if you know any other cool shits like this, please do share. im gonna go and search for my mom now. :D
:)

pakcik pakcik.

2009-12-21T10:49:00.000-08:00

ok.
this pakcik beside me cerite2 pasal religion, history and shit.
and hes been talking like hes been living through this shit.
and yeah, its shitty true.

heres a list of possibility what i think he really is:
1.hes good in history. (grade A student in highschool)
2.or maybe he dreams of this shit.
3.or maybe hes just a loner who cant get laid, so he masturbates to all the history books while reading it.
4.or just maybe, hes a fucking vampire.

heres a pic of him that i manage to get.

:)

Facebook.

2009-12-20T09:34:00.000-08:00

ok.
have you guysgals notice that facebook is like somewhat spying on you?

This is mine:
Ezzad just discovered his Best Friends Forever
And the results are:
1):Syazwan Harun
2):Mohd Ahuyy
3):Ammar Faiz

This is Ammar's:
Ammar just discovered his Best Friends Forever
And the results are:
1):Ezzad Azman
2):Syazwan Harun
3):Mohd Ahuyy

wtf?
:)

What are friends really for?

2009-12-13T02:09:00.000-08:00

Heres some of the list i made that i think what friends are really for:
1.to get into troubles.
2.blame them in situations that u cant get out.
3.break their heart and piece them back together like legos (so u can break it again n again)
3.to be laughed at.
4.so they can be the topic for your gossips.
5.to sleep with and pillow talk.
:)

ps: have a listen to bayside - winter. youll never regret to those things uve done with them.
:)

im a good girl, i am.

2009-11-05T01:07:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,
-.-"
sorry that ive didnt get the chance to name you yet. and sorry for the not writing in you for a long time. so, here it goes.

Saturday, 31/10/09:
AAR dude! haha. cool fucking concert. ive got to pay rm60 since a friend of mine whos yellow cant come due to a talk in my college. wtf?! anyways. had to wait in line like 30 mins. dont care since im a freak, ill wait for hours just to see them. and the sound check took like around 30 fucking mins. but it was worth it, no pause at all (the a 2 minutes break for the group before playing the wind blows). this are the list that they've played:
1.move along
2.dirty little secret
3.falling apart
4.damn girl
5.swing, swing
6.the last song
7.i wanna
8.gives you hell
9.the wind blows
10.real world
11.mona lisa
i think that was all i guess. so damn happy that theyve played damn girl. and so mad since a lot dont know the last song. heres a pic.

Wednesday, 4/11/09:
woohoo. plankton won. got a hamper of rm70 just for two people. and thnks KMB for the lights off. and thnks mrhatta for not understanding.

Thursday, 5/11/09:
math test. the probability for failing is 1.

Friday, 6/11/09:
ielts speaking test. 915am. will skip two class.

Saturday, 7/11/09:
ielts reading, writing, listening test. 8am. fuck.

guess thats all. write in you soon.
:)

Dear Diary:

2009-10-17T10:24:00.000-07:00

from now on, ill be posting a mini diary of what had/has/will happen to/from/with me. cant let those fond/shit/neutral memories go to waste. :)

Friday:
a typical friday. nothing interesting. tapi, ade beberapa perkara yang luar biasa berlaku.

perkara 1
ezzad: wei, asal ade org kutuk kau dalam blog.
org kuning: haha, kau dah bace eh?
ezzad: dah. asal dowh? kau buat ape kat die?
org kuning: aku cakap je bla bla bla.
ezzad: abih tu, knp ade name budak botak.
budak botak: aku ckp, dh mmg die mcm tu.

perkara 2
ezzad: hi setan.
setan: hi.
kawan perempuan setan: sape tu?
setan: ezzad.
kawan perempuan setan: owh, ezzad azman.

perkara 3
ezzad: aku rase bersalah ah.
ezzad: kene mintak maaf nie.
ezzad: "hey. really like to say sorry for whats been happening in kmb lately. if you know what i mean. really sorry. :)"
ezzad: still rase bersalah cause it was through facebook. -.-"

Saturday:
nothing.

Upcoming week:
kasukmas going to start soon. cant wait.

i guess thats all for now. ill write in you soon. im gonna start thinking of a name for you. its gonna be a good one. were gonna have a lot of fun. :)

i wanna i wanna.

2009-10-03T10:22:00.000-07:00

tak tau nk tulis ape.
just feel like nak tulis something.
currently im at utm skudai.
ade bridge competition thingy.
but i guess you people dont care.
um.
ielts dah nk bermule.
ee and ia tak bergerak.
banyak lagi la masalah.
and thanks la ikmal.
kau mmg 'memudahkan' hidup aku skg nie.
haha.
um.
and one more thing.
plz la jgn tulis blog2 yang bodo, emo semue tu.
kalau tak puas hati cakap la face to face.
this is directed to one of the gurls.
the world does not revolve around you.
and die budak kmb.
haha.
(aku plak emo)

best dream ever.

2009-09-27T10:17:00.001-07:00

woke up at around 2pm today.
before bangun tu, sempat berpelukan ngn seorang perempuan dari KMB.
it was nice.
and she wasnt a sasquatch.
haha.
:)

Boys Like Girls.

2009-09-25T15:05:00.000-07:00

Got my hair cut early in the morning yesterday (11am+).
Now i feel and look like Martin Johnson. :)
Ahuyy also got his hair cut.
Now he looks yellow.
But the night just got worst.
Thanks lah mamak.
seriously aku emo gle.
Lets just hope going beraye today will cheer me up.
maybe ill upload pics on facebook.
:)

pembaharuan.

2009-09-22T03:48:00.001-07:00

only three days without any connection and whatsoever with the world of cyber and technology, theres been HUGE amount of changes that occurred:
1.my friend "couple" ngn budak kmb.(ithink)
2.my friend sekarang has his own twitter. (positive)
nothing much really.
its just that im happy for them.
wouldnt trade these happy moments for anything.

fin.
:)

balik kampung(tunjang, jitra, kedah).

2009-09-17T19:58:00.000-07:00

"tang mana tu?"
"hang pikiaq la sendiri"
woke up with a severe heahache. (shit)
it's just a few more hours to go before i'm going back to kampung.
cant say that im happy, cause im not close with my cousins at all.
yesterday i went shopping and bought something for myself, and for izwan sanusi. :)
gonna go shopping again after friday's prayer. :)
what have ive been doing currently for this past few days?
lepak, futsal, thats all.
maybe ill update with a few pics when i get back,
selamat hari raye all.
:)

chatting with her.

2009-09-14T00:03:00.000-07:00

BUZZ!!!
pandanballaq_00 has selected the "Doodle" IMVironment.

BUZZ!!!
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00 has selected the "Doodle" IMVironment.

pandanballaq_00: kulit aku mengelupas gile2 doh
pandanballaq_00: cmne ni
ezzad: WEI
ezzad: aku tau kenapa dowh
pandanballaq_00: asal
ezzad: kau dalam proses jadi prawns!!!
pandanballaq_00: siyessss
ezzad: serious!
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00: cmne nih
pandanballaq_00: aku taknk
pandanballaq_00: aku x minat catfood
ezzad: kau terpakse
ezzad: tak pe, dalam 3 tahun, boss die datang balik
ezzad: tolong kau
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00: kalau cm2 susah la
pandanballaq_00: 3 tahn bai
pandanballaq_00: nak amik medic konfem tk lepas
pandanballaq_00: sape nak recognise aku nati
ezzad: kau terpakse survive dalam dunia yang kejam ini.
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00: serius la
pandanballaq_00: haha
ezzad: haha. g la beli lotion or something
pandanballaq_00: aku xnak kua\
pandanballaq_00: tlg
pandanballaq_00: tepaksa duk umah
pandanballaq_00: nanti kne kecam
ezzad: asal, takut kene attack ngn manusie yang kejam terhadap prawns?
pandanballaq_00: haah
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00: kalau pkai mask yg h1n1 tuh
pandanballaq_00: mesti org tak nmpk kn
pandanballaq_00: esok... gi x pn..?
ezzad: aku on je.
pandanballaq_00: kalau esok pki mask ok kot
pandanballaq_00: tapi aku takde mask
pandanballaq_00: haha
ezzad: aku rase rumah aku ade. kau kene bawak moto laju2 ah. takut kene attack ngn manusie yang kejam.
pandanballaq_00: weiyh
pandanballaq_00: bwk pisau
pandanballaq_00: tkut kau pun attck sekjli
pandanballaq_00 is typing a message.
pandanballaq_00: sbb tlg prwn
ezzad: agak ah, kau mmg prawn yang baik.
pandanballaq_00: =)

stupid pick up lines and shit.

2009-09-11T09:11:00.000-07:00

my friend, syafiq some stupid things.
pickup 1.
boy: are you tired?
girl: no, why?
boy: cause uve been running in my head all day long.
-.-"

stupid stuff:
situation one.
boy1: wanna go beastility?
boy2: sure, did you bring your dog?
boy1: no, but i brought my horse.
-.-"

situation two.
boy1: wanna go beastility?
boy2: sure, did you bring you dog?
boy1: no, but i brought my sasquatch.
-.-"

situatio three.
boy1: wanna let me fuck you with my 5 inch cock?
boy2: no!
boy1: what about my 12 inch cock?
-.-"

:)

the beetle.

2009-09-05T06:12:00.001-07:00

i was just watching some random vids on youtube.
then, i came across this.

you guys should hear the original version of this (as this is a piano cover done by them)
who says screamo cant sing?
:)

p/s: btw, i luv music, so ill keep on updating maybe some more random stuff relating to music. currently, im making a list of what bands/songs people should hear, so if uve got any songs/bands in mind, just let me know.
:)

What's on your mind?

2009-08-30T05:59:00.001-07:00

beyonce.ia maths.

ia it.

ee it.

tok essay.

tok presentation.

sasquatch.

beyonce.

syazwa.

love drunk.

sasquatch.

poor kitten? or poor sasquatch?

2009-08-26T13:28:00.000-07:00

sorry for the fast update.
but this could not wait.poor kitten.

poor sasquatch.
:)

what's not taught in the forest.

2009-08-26T13:04:00.000-07:00

the sasquatches were given an assignment relating to mathematics.
hmm.
its 4.11am and 2 sasquatches were having a difficult time answering a question on cubic polynomials.
they were mad.
really mad.
from 11pm up till now, just one question.
the black sasquatch had given up.
but the albino sasquatch was still trying as hard as he could with all his might.
black sasquatch, "mamak, milo suam satu. kau nak ape?"
albino sasquatch, "um, teh o."
so, then came the drinks.
albino sasquatch, "eh, asal setiap kali kau order, dorang bagi sudu?"
black sasquatch, "tah, sbb ade bende2 kat bawah lapisan milo kut."
the end.

my first time . com

2009-08-26T01:14:00.000-07:00

this is my first entry.
thnks to kuak and penumpang.
this is me.
:)